My Coming Out Story 🌈

On July 2nd, 2017, 27 days before my 21st birthday I came out to my family as gay now leading up to this day was very hard for me to do I hid it from everyone for a long time but looking back now that was such a bad idea to not say anything sooner & I just felt if I didn't say something I would never say something it would kill me inside and that's not how I wanted to live my life anymore at all I didn't sleep at all the nights before. I wasn't sure how they would take it but then I remembered talking to my mom a while back ago and she told my twin sister and I that both her and dad would support any of our decisions in life no matter what. When I told them we were at my parents house and I planned to tell everyone in the living room so I can get it out faster but that didn't happen. I finally went to my mom and dad bedroom and I was talking to my mom about something and and out of nowhere I asked her what would she think about my being gay. She said that if that's what makes me happy then that's what makes me happy they were all very supportive when I told them about how I was feeling. They all had a hunch about me being gay they just didn't know when it was going to come up when I was growing up I always knew something was off about me, I wasn't boy crazy like my twin sister Breanna I was girl crazy even at school I wasn't interested in guys. I would still talk to them I just didn't see my self dating any guys or marrying one I always saw my self with a girl. I always found girls more attractive and I didn't know how I was feeling at the time because I was a little confused about my feelings so I just learned more about everything out there. I've learned a lot about the LGBTQ Community, I knew that once I finally came out that I would I had a whole other family that has my back 100% I knew that I've liked girls for a very long time but, at the time I had to be sure with my self and be confident about my self. I am a tomboy, never liked anything girly, always in the boys' section shopping for clothes, I wasn't always happy I had some bad days and it got to the point that I didn't want to keep fighting & I still have my days today & it absolutely sucks I'm still not that type of person that will always tell everyone what I'm feeling it's just hard for me to express myself . I still struggle with a lot of things sometimes I feel like the world is against me just for being gay , I have a hard time with a family member that is kinda supportive , I wonder a lot if she's just doing it because she feels like she has to. She outed me to most of my other family & I was pretty upset with her because she had no right to do so & I was pretty disappointed that it got out when I didn't want it to. Other then that it's going all right I guess , I've been confused about a lot & to this day I'm still confused about myself & don't feel comfortable in my own body but I'm learning to love myself slowly & I think it would help if I stop watching the news because all I see is about our community is getting threatened for us being who we truly are & it's sad that we can't even be our true selves because of all the hate we get on a daily it's so sad what world we live in today that we get judge for everything we do.